Tuesday, November 26, 2013

The first time I was told

I was 28 when i married.  I went to see the doctor to do the usual checks before the big day.  Concerned with the the amount of hair I had on my body, I asked her what the cause was and if I could do anything about it.  She told me it was called Hursutism and that more than likely I had PCOS but wouldn't be able to confirm that until tests were done.  She also said that there was a good chance that I would have trouble getting pregnant. 
How could this be?  My mom had eight children.  Her two sisters had eight children.  My grandmother had seven children.  I come from a long history of women who have had lots of children.  Was it really possible that even though I came from a family of fertile women that I could be infertile.
Not sure what to believe, I knew that I didn't want pregnant on my honeymoon so I went ahead and asked to be put on birth control. I always wanted a nice sized family myself (4 - 6) but wanted to give myself a short time before I started a family.  At the same time I didn't want to wait too long because after all I was 28 soon to be 29.  Six months.  Only six months on birth control and then I would begin trying.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

My New Beginning

I have been contemplating on whether I wanted to have a blog to talk about my struggles with infertility.  The day I decided I wanted to create a place to express myself and talk about journey is the day that I turned 36 and started bleeding with my 4th miscarriage. 
Hopefully this will help others who are struggling the same as I.